Just came after LYING to a friend. I think I have earned some good people in my life who perhaps are genuinely concerned about me. Often I have found them listening to me. Yet every time I have lacked the courage to uncover my vulnerabilities. The puzzle I face between their concern and curiosity holds… Continue reading 11th – People: “People are Strange when you are a Stranger”
10th – POS and poverty
What a day it was. Nothing fancy, yet kind of content. I had already drafted the title of my 10th (this) blog a couple of days back. It was primarily meant to be about my changing opinion about the absolute (and my reaction after using DALL.E 2). But. But today I am going to talk… Continue reading 10th – POS and poverty
Weeks [Lost Count] – Fall-in, Fall-apart
It seems I have lost count of the weeks, as I was supposed to write weekly. I will not be writing weekly, as it makes the whole thing very objective than meditative. I am home, after almost 5 months. A lot many things happened (mostly good). The best of which was, I had been introduced… Continue reading Weeks [Lost Count] – Fall-in, Fall-apart
Weeks 10, 11 – Jealousy
It had been 7 weeks since I have actually journaled anything properly. Was I busy? No. I had been mostly sleeping 8 to 12 hours a day, working a bit and thinking (a lot, a lot lot). I have created this wall within my brain that keeps on producing thoughts about specific events, people, happenings… Continue reading Weeks 10, 11 – Jealousy
Weeks 7, 8, 9… – Omegle New Year
Excited, Involved, Lazy & Consumed…
Weeks 5 & 6 – Losing control
A lot of things (both fresh and repetitive) happened in the past two weeks. Had been journaling (personally) short notes daily. It usually takes more than approximately 3 focused hours to comprehend and polish my weekly experiences and learnings into a presentable blog. Since I do not want to rush while I present my very… Continue reading Weeks 5 & 6 – Losing control
Week 4 – Gaining momentum?
Week started with a call from a restaurant. This time I have been referred by a distant friend with whom I had not been in touch for a very long time (networking is important in early stages, therefore). This is also the first time the client was interested in my age. Though I am 20,… Continue reading Week 4 – Gaining momentum?
Week 3 – Fresh feelings
This week’s morning started with dusts of glasses that contained all those happenings that I do not wanted to happen, or at least not at once. However, this time I was successful to proact to the circumstances. The next day, Tuesday, I left for Calcutta. I was travelling with Hrit, this time. Met him after… Continue reading Week 3 – Fresh feelings
Week 2 – Not productive, yet consumed by thoughts
Yes, not a productive week. I have become visibly sensitive towards every-thing, every-one and every-happening. I listen to the last word of what the other person is speaking to me in a conversation and try to achieve and carry the highest depth in it. Same with every other happenings. In one way, it is helping… Continue reading Week 2 – Not productive, yet consumed by thoughts
Week 1 – Organizing my life before College re-opens
I am pursuing Engineering in Computer Science. And my college is set to re-open on and after 16th of November 2021. I came home in March 2020 expecting to return to college after spending my 2020’s Holi in my town where we collectively celebrate it in a “Mela” and some additional “holidays” (given for something… Continue reading Week 1 – Organizing my life before College re-opens